I want my daughter to grow up knowing that no matter what she is gorgeous and to never try to conform to society's beauty standard but to set her own standards and reach for the stars no matter what anyone thinks.
I kind of grew up feeling like I never fit into the standard of beauty. In junior high I was very much a tomboy and would wear cargo shorts and t-shirts a lot. I was teased because I didn't want to wear makeup and conform to what everyone else was doing. Because of the teasing and bullying I began to dress more feminine and start wearing makeup once I was 14 years old just so I could fit in. It didn't stop there because then it was about how I was too skinny, I wore glasses, or teased about breakouts.
I met my husband when I was 16 years old and he turned my world around. From that year in 2006 I always felt I was beautiful and was no longer uncomfortable in my own skin but that of course only lasted so long. Fast forward to 2016 and after 6 years of marriage and 2 kids I had gained 20 pounds and I no longer saw beauty in the mirror. I was no longer happy with how I looked and started to shut down.
Between the usual stress of life, marriage, kids, and work I began to suffer from anxiety and was diagnosed with depression too. Of course the medication only made me gain more weight and feel even worse about how I looked. Through all of this my husband reminded me every day how beautiful I was and that no matter what anyone thinks I should love who I am.
I have him to thank for finally getting the courage to do a boudoir shoot with Ashlee so that I could finally see for myself how he sees me everyday. The most important thing is to surround yourself with people that love you for who you are on the inside and out; I definitely lucked out in that category!
Of course I was very nervous about doing this shoot because who can say they honestly are 100% comfortable being half naked in front of someone they hardly know and being photographed?! About 20 minutes into my session I just started to loosen up and Ashlee reminding me to think of my husband constantly helped a lot. We joked around a lot and just talked about life which made me much more comfortable.
Once I saw my photos I just couldn't believe it was me at first. I was wondering who that woman was on the other side of that camera and why have I never seen how beautiful I am. I suggest to any other woman that hasn't done this yet and struggles to see her own beauty and self worth... book with Ash cause you won't regret it!